Please Excuse The Mess

I am learning CSS and playing with it on my blog here so please excuse the strange appearance for the next couple weeks!!! Stay tuned to see how it turns out!!!


And God Said No

I asked God to take away my pride,
And God said, “No.”
He said it is not for Him to take away,
but for me to give up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole,
And God said, “No.”
He said her spirit is whole,
Her body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience,
And God said, “No.”
He said that patience is a by-product of tribulation,
it isn’t granted, it’s earned.

I asked God to give me happiness,
And God said, “No.”
He said He gives blessings,
Happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain,
And God said, “No.”
He said, “Suffering draws you apart from worldly
cares and brings you closer to Me.”

I asked God to make my spirit grow,
And God said, “No.”
He said I must grow on my own,
but He will prune me to make me fruitful.

I asked God if He loved me,
And God said, “Yes.”
He gave me His only Son who died for me,
and I will be in Heaven someday because I believe.

I asked God to help me love others,
as much as He loves me.
And God said,
“Ah, finally you have the idea.”

© 1980, Claudia Minden Weisz.

Busy Day … I’m Exhausted

So this morning I posted a post about all the things I wanted to get done today only to find out that Matt had other ideas about the day. He needed to go to Social Security to get a letter for the D.A. concerning Child Support and I needed to apply for Gavin’s Social Security Card. Come to find out the little blue card they gave me at the hospital is NOT proof of birth in the least. I had to scrape up $20 to go get his birth certificate from the other side of town. One quick pit stop on the way there to order Matt’s medications and we were off again.

Since we were on the east side of town we stopped by the D.A.’s office to drop off the letter Matt got at Social Security. While we were there I found out that I could apply for child support so I went ahead and filled out all the paperwork. Then I went to welfare to apply for TANF. This is something I have been meaning to do but haven’t because I avoid that particular corner of the city. It’s the same welfare office I had to surrender my older two boys at back in November 2008 so it’s painful to be anywhere near there.

Around 2 pm Gavin had enough for the day and needed a nap so I dropped him and Matt off at home so he could get one. I stopped off to pick up Matt’s medication and went back to the social security to get Gavin’s social security card ordered. I sat there for a good hour before they finally called my number. Unfortunately, I come home to a baby who still hasn’t taken a nap because the people upstairs are making so much noise replacing their ceramic tiles that he couldn’t stay asleep more than 20 minutes before the noise would wake him up again.

Ohh … I forgot to mention I did all this on 3 hours of sleep and nothing to eat or drink, besides about 10 cookies in the car, since 5 am.

New Years Resolutions

Normally I don’t make “resolutions” but this year I want to make my life better so I chose five things that are important to me to work on.

My New Years Resolutions

  • Give myself lots of Grace to do life One Day At A Time!
  • Spend 15 minutes a day reading the bible.
  • Spend One hour a day playing alone with Gavin.
  • Spend at least Thirty minutes doing some kind of exercise.
  • Spend One hour a day with Matt without distractions.

Goals For Monday 1/3/11

I have a few things I really want to get done. This house needs some major tidying over the next week so I am going to set a few tasks for myself everyday.

For Monday:

  • Put my laundry away
  • Do Gavins laundry
  • Wash bed sheets
  • Fix my pillow
  • Continue building milk supply
  • Make shopping list for the week
  • Make “Dinner Menu” for the week
  • Tidy up living room

WIC Said Wait

So I posted the other day about switching to half formula and half nursing but the lactation lady at WIC said she wanted me to try pumping and feeding him breast milk in a bottle since he seems to be pushing away the breast during the day. She lent me an electric breast pump to make this easier than the manual I have. She said it would make it faster and would pull more of the hind milk out of the right side. I seem to have a serious imbalance, the left gives more hind-milk and the right gives more fore-milk.

I have to work on drinking more but I already feel like I drink too much. I guess I’ll have to give it a decent try. I have a class to go to at WIC on the 19th so if I still want to put him on formula part-time then all I have to do is take the pump back and ask for the formula to be added to my benefits. I am going to give it a valiant effort starting today since all the holiday activities are over and I will be home more than not.